The Beginning

June 23, 2009

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Welcome to my blog. I’ve been threatening to do this for some time now so it is odd to actually be typing in this little box; I find it equal parts exciting and, actually, embarrassing. I mean, really, does the world really need another blog? Is this truly the best use of my time? Shouldn’t I be doing laundry, or researching clinical trials? Maybe I am just finding it daunting, this first post, so I’ve decide to cheat and do a little copy’n’paste.

I am fortunate to have for a neighbor and good friend the wonderful Monica S., who is an established executive- and management-level coach (clearly she is slumming it with my unemployed self). During our first meeting, which took place in my living room (my new “recession lounge”) and involved way, way too much wine for reasonable people on a weeknight, she posed two important questions, which I was to answer as homework: Why did I want to write? And, what did I want to leave behind as my legacy when I was no longer here?

It was all fun and games when we were deep in the Tres Picos, but when I sat down days later to do my assignment, I realized that this was some serious shit.

So, just to get the ball rolling, here are my answers:

Why writing?

1- Because I want to. I like thinking of ideas, sitting down to write, revising essays to improve them…I truly enjoy all of it, really. I think about writing every single day so it’s been a treat to actually write, beyond emails and Facebook status updates (sad that I’ve come to think of status updates as “writing.”).

I’m still not writing on a daily basis, though. I hope this blog will help with that. My seventh grade teacher said I was going to be a writer (what a dorky, ridiculous thing for me to reveal). In short, I feel like I’ve been reunited with a long lost friend since taking my writing class.

2- To keep up the mental game. For obvious reasons, I want to keep my mind limber and according to the research, the best way to do that is by engaging in activities you don’t normally do. I haven’t spent much time in the past few years thinking about things like sentence structure, or grammar, or punctuation, or synonyms and so on. It feels good to have essays in the works and to go through the process of revising them, and researching target markets, setting up the blog and so on.

3- Writing gives me a sense of purpose/identity. Since my store closed I have spent a lot of my time taking care of others. That’s my choice and it’s what I want to do – but maybe not all the time. When I am sitting down to write it is about me and what I want to do.

Due to MANY factors it is not the right time for me to go out and get a traditional job. If I could publish an essay here and there and make even a little money, it would make me feel good about myself.

There, I said it. I am hoping, at some point, to make some money from writing.

4- It helps me sort through things. The situation with my mom is hands-down the craziest, worst, and most all-encompassing, confusing thing I have ever dealt with and I think that putting some of it in writing will help me sort through the mess and come to terms with it. At some point maybe it will also help someone else deal wth a similar situation. Maybe I’m kidding myself and neither of those things will ever happen, but it’s all about the trying, right?

5- I might have some interesting stories to tell, or an interesting perspective. Along with being horrible, dealing first-hand with Alzheimer’s is undoubtedly…I don’t know what the right word is. (I previously had “fascinating,” but once I took the time to read the definition I found that it does have built-in positive connotations. And there is NOTHING positive about what’s happening.) It’s a total shit storm, but it should be discussed, more and often.

Also, beyond that specific issue I would love to write some stories about other adventures in life. I have done some interesting things, as I sometimes need to remind myself!

And, the big whopper: What do you want to leave behind?

It is so easy to get caught up in the trials of day-to-day living and to ignore the Big Picture stuff but this question of a legacy is an important one. Along with a kind, generous, happy and creative daughter, I hope to leave behind…good memories. That’s why we try so hard to have some fun every day.

Beyond that, I would say that words are a good thing to leave behind. So that will be my new goal Рto leave behind some words that will hopefully, someday, make someone laugh or cry or say, Yes, I know exactly what you mean.

So, that’s what I’m doing here. I can’t imagine what the hell you are doing here if you’ve read this far, but I will say that future posts will be about various topics and not just my musings on, uhm, me. Hope to see you here.

  • ryan

    good stuff!!

  • Meganne

    Kudos to you – and selfishly, I’m just looking forward to having some good blog posts of yours to read. (No pressure.) (Well, that’s not true. PRESSURE! Because, that will help you write, right?)

  • This is great. So happy you're doing this!

  • Congratulations on starting your blog! Blogging has been a wonderful experience for me. I hope it will be for you as well.

  • Rebecca

    Lise! so great can't wait for more!

  • Clare Bundy Haygood

    Lise, who is this guy who keeps saying he's your biggest fan? Because he is clearly wrong, since your biggest fan is sittin' right here. This rocks. I am going to pull it out when you visit and we can actually talk about the BIG ISSUES face to face. I am so excited!

  • Reb

    I love it Lise! Nice work…

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